live my life how it should be :)

love

2012-01-11T21:17:00.000-08:00

I just can't wait to marry this man! grr!!

good times with my darling

2011-12-03T21:16:00.000-08:00

everyday he will come and see me. there's so much sweet memories he gave me. having lunch and dinner together, and most important thing was,study together. Tasek seksyen 7 and I-city were our fav spot. oh yes,BARRA,our favourite restaurant. Nasi Goreng Ayam Barra,favourite baby..kann.. :p

okay,this picture is when we went to Senyap sec 13,nearby Extreme Park,watched Syuk's performance. double date with Qin and Syuk. that night was awesome. sebelum cuti seminggu AidilAdha. then that evening hubby hantar balik rumah akak kat Ampang. First time he met akak. akak said,at first dia nampak hubby,akak terkejut coz dia kata muka hubby macam muka kelly. ohmyy..I'm so happy to heard that,petanda jodoh..hee
and this is the night where we went to UM,met Ayin(his bestfriend) and gf,dinner kat Murni,I love the drink,Pink Panther,big glass,shared it with my love. sedap sangat. and then me,hubby,Ayin and cina bukit lepak Dataran Merdeka sekejap. then we headed back to Shah Alam. suddenly his cousin,Angah called him and ajak lepak as Angah want to see I-city. at 4am we went to I-city,me,Hubby,Angah and his gf. then we went to Tasek Titiwangsa. lepaking sampai pagi. and then on 8am selamat sampai ke Shah Alam. Hubby drived while I'm fall asleep. such a memorable night with my Hubby.

Debat 211jam

2011-12-03T20:49:00.000-08:00

time ni tengah tunggu giliran. okay ngantuk gila. kul 2pagi kot..ohmyy..ni dengan group sport rec, Su,Weiwei,Ain,Matcha,and Khalili,

and this one,dengan Fatin,Syarif,Khalili,Nana,Kerol and Paan.

ni pulak peneman setia Kelly. semua sidang dia teman Kelly.sambil study mandarin and electric. baby,I sayang you bangat!! thanks sudi teman I eventho pagi pagi buta. sanggup bersengkang mata asalkan pat tengok I bercakap merapu.and tolong I buat ayat. time I tension pun B ada je kat sisi I,bagi support kat I..baby,,thanks sangat sangat. I sayang you,

girlfriends

2011-12-03T19:07:00.000-08:00

holla peeps. baru perasan previous entry it's all about syafiq,syafiq,syafiq...biasalah..orang ngah angau..hee..

okay,first of all..nak cerita pasal my girlfriends..

Fiqa . banyak tolong Kelly time Kelly susah.selalu dengar masalah kelly,tolong selesaikan.. babe,I love you like a lot!you are so sweet,like gula gula. hee. Fiqa selalu buat Kelly ketawa,menceriakan hari hari Kelly. really,because of her,my days during classes were so happy. since sem 1,this lovely girl yang selalu teman kelly,buat kelly tersenyum and always there for me. kelly very appreciate you dear. even kita tak tinggal serumah dah sekarang,you just don't know how I missed our moment together. kalau kelly ada sakitkan hati Fiqa,terguna duit Fiqa,terkecikkan hati,terguriskan hati,terkutuk lebih-lebih,I'm so sorry..I' not perfect. kelly sayang Fiqa sangat sangat..and kelly akan elak seelak elaknya perselisihan faham antara kita. this I promise you.
cik sailormoon yang molek ni,my favourite girlwe're under the same zodiac, PISCES. so most of our perangai quite the same la.obses dgn kucen. tapi manyak jugak tak same,such as Fatin ni ade amek Aquarius pnye sikit-sikit. hakhak. such as pembersih gila,perfectionist,and beberapa perkara lagi lah. one thing yang paling buat kelly happy was she's ready to give her commitment. and to see her happy with her current life. of course with hiro rakki. Hiro rakki,you were the lucky one!! babe,I wanna say sorry if I can't be a perfect friend for you,but trust me,I have gave my best to be a good friend for you. and I always will.

one month baby..

2011-11-22T19:56:00.000-08:00

masa ni dekat sir Fendi and kak Yin 's engagement kat Cheras. baby kena paksa pakai kemeja hitam untuk matching dengan I..hehehe
and then balik je mid b leh deman lak..muka pucat..I risau gile taw :( I sayang sangat kat B,I taknak B sakit..I benci tengok B sakit..biar I yang sakit..jangan you :( t susah B nak datang jumpa I..then kita tak pat jumpa then nanti I rindu gila kat B :(
I love this picture so much..eventho Piqa muka baby macam budak-budak yang skema :p tapi I tetap suka,cuz it shown how we so in Love..

and this one,gambar KONTROVERSI. hahaha..Aidil laa ni boleh tag lak kat B and I. grr, dah lah I mok gila, serabai :( tapi kan baby,this time kita malu-malu lagi kan..hahaha..time ni B nak lek Ampang,tapi B nak jugak jumpa I sekejap :p

my baby boo..it's have been a month. eventho baruuu sebulan,tapi seriously baby.you buat bahagia sangat-sangat. mungkin you belum tunjuk belang you,I belum tunjuk belang I,kita belum pernah melalui pergaduhan yang besar,tapi seriously baby,I have confident that our relationship will full with this flowers of love til our last breath. bak kata Ma,bukan kita bercinta hari ni nak kahwin besok,yes it's so true,jodoh kita pun tak pasti lagi kan. tapi baby this I promise you. I akan jaga you sebaik mungkin,hubungan kita ni.

happy one month anniversary baby..

bahagia

2011-11-14T22:31:00.000-08:00

Hubby..indahnya perasaan ni. masing masing tergila-gilakan masing-masing. I taknak hilang perasaan ni,I taknak keadaan kita berubah,cause like seriously being with you just like being in heaven. you know how to handle me,you know how to protect me,you know how to be caring,romantic and oh my god baby you are so perfect for me. for meso cane I nak lepaskan you? I tak sanggup. I'm such a lucky girl yang get a chance to having a perfect creature like you. I tak pernah terbayang untuk dapat someone like you. yang tatang I bagai minyak yang penuh. chewahh :p please baby.jangan berubah,stay like this forever. OMG how I wish :( if someday you berubah,hmm,I takut sangat to even think about that I sayang you sangat tau. tak jumpa sehari takleh. jumpa sekejap pun takleh :p

semakin hari semakin sayang..hee

2011-11-02T23:09:00.001-07:00

I am happy not just because of the priceless moments we've shared. I'm happy not just because of the things you've done to make me smile. But also I'm happy because for the rest of my life,I will wake up each morning thanking God for giving me YOU

AHMAD SYAFIQ

2011-10-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

my pretty boy, AHMAD SYAFIQ

dear,you are too good to be true. you are beyond perfect. you baik sangat-sangat. I takkan peduli lagi pasal kisah lampau you,and I akan lupakan kisah lampau I. yes,betul apa yang you and your mom cakap,benda-benda lampau tu laa yang akan selalu jadi punca kita gaduh. we really should live in the present kan cyg. let bygone be bygone. tapi,I memang kuat sangat jealous,yeahh on that one thing I mengaku memang I tak matang lagi. kuat sangat-sangat jealous. you pun cakap you kuat jealous kan,I know,and I janji I takkan betray our love,betray our relationship. I love you,I will fight for our love. eventho kita baru je 7 hari @ 168jam @ 10080minutes @ 604800seconds [well not that exactly] being in relationship,but you have shown so much love to me,so much protection towards me,you dah buktikan your commitment as you kenalkan I dengan your family. it's not really matter how long kita dah kenal,but the matter is how serious you are with me. I memang cepat marah,I memang cepat merajuk but trust me honey,I takkan tinggalkan you selagi you jaga I,selagi ada cinta antara kita,selagi kita berdua masih mahu mempertahankan hubungan ni. biarlah orang nak cakap apa pun,pasal penampilan I,pasal you,or whatsoever, yang penting kita,kebahagiaan kita,bukan mereka. its not that kita selfish,tapi ni soal hati. diaorang takde hak nak masuk campur. ni soal kita. :) ILOVEYOULIKECRAZY yes I really do baby!

for someone who I love so muchh..

2011-10-27T00:07:00.000-07:00

dear Tasha,

it's been a while that we've been ignoring each other. yes it's so true that after a while,the anger seems to turns to sadness. and sure do we will try to figure out how things turns out like this. well I think it's too late for me to fix misunderstanding between us.

I know you won't read this Tasha,

tapi setiap kali aku menjadi manusia paling gembira dalam dunia ni,orang yang pertama aku nak share ialah kau,

setiap kali perkara paling meyedihkan terjadi dalam hidup aku,orang pertama yang ingin aku mengadu ialah kau.

setiap kali ada cerita-cerita hot,orang yang pertama aku nak bergosip bersama ialah kau.

sangat sakit untuk aku memendam semua keinginan aku ini hanya kerana ego yang membataskan.

you just like my angel Tasha..yes you are..you are such a PERFECT and TRUE friend and I'm the lucky one who get a chance to be your besties.

but I don't deserve someone like you..I'm not a good friend for you..

bila kau paling gembira dalam dunia ni,aku sibuk dengan urusan aku sendiri.

bila kau bersedih hati,aku lebih pentingkan kekasih aku.

bila aku ingin berkongsi cerita,mata aku tak lepas dari screen handphone.

aku tak ada untuk kau,sedangkan kau selalu ada untuk aku. that's why I decided to let you go..and I know sekarang mata kau dah terbuka luas and dapat lihat betapa teruknya aku sebagai seorang kawan. aku tak marah bila kau tiba-tiba block aku,aku tahu kau sakit tengok wall aku,bila aku lagi menghargai orang lain dan terus tidak menghiraukan kau. I'm so sorry Tasha. but I think this is the best for us. aku tahu ramai orang boleh ganti tempat aku. and thanks for the sweet memories and attention you gave me Tasha..I'm so grateful coz Allah gave me a chance to once have a true friend like you. I love you so much and I miss you like hell. seriously. take care my angel..

I love you like a love song baby :)

2011-10-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

thank for the rose b,I love it :)

seriously,macam mimpi. how I can meet you Syafiq. you're such a miracle,you datang waktu I tengah mencari cinta. and there you came,with that one smile,on that night first time kita berjumpa. you're asked for my number,with that gentleman way. you're fascinating me Syafiq. every night kita jumpa,hati I makin rasa lain. I selesa dengan you,dengan cara you,and I keep falling to you..bila sehari tak jumpa,I dilanda rindu yang snagat hebat. I miss you so much baby during that time. and I just can't wait to meet you again and again. hubungan kita sangat pantas,berkawan seminggu and lastly you proposed me and all I wanna say is YES. you're giving me half of your heart and the other half for your family,and now this is a heart, my heart, and it's yours now hubby :) thanks for the commitment,thanks sebab terus kenalkan I dengan your Ibu,your family,itu menunjukkan how serious you are with me,you lain dari sebelum ni,you memenuhi semua impian I and you're just like my angel,you jaga I,you're so caring towards me. I bersyukur sangat dapat jumpa you. for these past few days,i'm living in someplace that I thought was a heaven,and actually it was because of you baby. you makes my life happier than before. I love you Syafiq,truly..

I will keep this relationship,work and fighting for it.

my other half :)

2011-10-24T11:32:00.000-07:00

thanks sebab sabar dengan I,karenah I.. :) you really makes me falling love with you,this warm feeling inside my heart. :)

I may love the wrong person and cry for the wrong reason. one thing is sure, mistakes help me find the right person. I really hope that you were the one yunk..

It's not what I feel for you, it's what I don't feel for anyone but you. :)

2011-10-23T10:59:00.001-07:00

thanks Syafiq. :) tak sabar tunggu malam nanti. haishhh :D 24hb pun boleyyy lahh :D eventho tak cantik cam 11.11.2011.. hehe :p

akhirnya..

2011-10-13T01:27:00.000-07:00

sakit laa..sape kata tak sakit! sometimes,bila benda tu lagi sikt je nak jadi milik kita but then by one simple stupid words everything pun terus berubah. and sometimes,kita akan terus cam redhaa je kan..haihh..its not about ego,tapi sumpah aku taknak syok sendiri. and aku just fikir,kalau betul dia jodoh aku,he is the one,tak kira macam mana sekali pun,tak kira berapa lama lagi pun kami tetap akn dapat bersatu. kan? tapi tu lahh,paling tak tahan bila bab nak ikhlaskan tu lah..sakit doe. ok la,eventho kiteorang kenal secara rapat pun sekejap gila,tapi twu2 je lahh if perasaan suka dah upgrade sikit jadi sayang.so memang kena usaha sikit la nak lupakan..takpe kelly..busykan diri keyhh :D cam ta biase lak :D

about Kelly :)

2011-09-30T20:23:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

permata yang hilang

2011-09-26T01:27:00.000-07:00

cakap pasal lelaki,i've met someone yang sangat sesuai untuk dijadikan sebagai calon suami. dia baik,seorang yang soleh,seorang yang matang,seorang yang setia,seorang kawan yang baik. tapi,aku dah lepaskan dia.
cakap pasal perempuan pulak,aku dah berjumpa dengan sahabat yang sangat-sangat baik,yang sanggup berkorban apapun untuk aku,yang sanggup bersusah senang dengan aku,dia pun aku dah lepaskan.
sometimes,before tidur I keep thinking,kenapa aku bodoh sangat,kenapa aku ego sangat,kenapa aku sangat-sangat tak matang dan kenapa aku tak pandai hargai permata yang sangat berharga. aku dah diberi anugerah oleh Allah dua orang kekasih dan sahabat yang baik,tapi aku tak hargai mereka, akhirnya aku kehilangan mereka.

aku hanya mampu doakan mereka berdua sentiasa di bawah lindunganNya dan berjumpa dengan perempuan yang lagi baik dan solehah. yang tahu bagaimana untuk menghargai mereka.

and untuk diriku pula,
just be happy and live your life to the fullest.
someday,you will meet your soulmate. no worries : )

third one

2011-09-23T06:59:00.000-07:00

no it will never be easy. but I have to. yes aku memang kejam,aku memang jahat,after this I shud take a break. you know,single is a holiday tau : ) aku patut tahu yang komitmen tu sangat-sangat sukar if kita tak ready, memang,aku sakit sangat sangat sangat sekarang,but you know what,I WILL BE OKAY,just not tonight,or tomorrow,but I will be just fine. time can heal,yes it can. aku dah melalui ini tiga kali. I will be just fine. and ignorance is a bliss,sorry I have to remove you from my friend list. I have to. semoga kamu baik-baik saja.

the effort you make will pay off kelly! InsyaAllah^_^

2011-09-20T21:40:00.000-07:00

ok i'll stop grumble about how busy this semester was. for this first and half weeks ni aku memang semangat gile lah kan,bangun pagi pun senyum je,rasa tak sabar-sabar nak pergi kelas segala,harap-harap semangat ni kekal sampai aku graduate nanti la..amin..
subjects for this semester yang aku ambil,

Ordinary Differential Equations
Calculus III
Linear Algebra II
Probability and Statistics
Econometrics
Principle and Practice of Management
Arabic Language II
Public Speaking (Bahasa Melayu) I

banyak tak?banyak tak?? =_= tape tape,I'lll try my best untuk terus tingkatkan pointer aku. there comes a time where I have to stop beating myself up over the mistake I've made. i will never ever repeat them in future

by the wayyy,hari-hari saya diwarnai dengan gelak ketawa bersama my buchuk2,korang memang best!

Syafiqah Tajul Mulok [kak Jemah ku sygs : p]

Nurfatin Sailormoon

Siti Hawanazira

Shazzy Wanie

14years and still counting baby

2011-09-20T20:23:00.000-07:00

Mazril Emyliya Misbae

I love you dearly. I miss you when we go a day without texting or talking to one another. I love when you understand me. It’s so nice being able to communicate with you in a way that only us two can comprehend.

Thank you for being honest, caring, and having such a beautiful personality. I hate when we fight. I hate when we have a day where we barely talk. I love being drawn to you. Your friendship means the world to me. Thank you for always being there when no one else was. Thank you for lifting me up everytime I fell. Thank you for always putting a smile on my face. Thank you for being.. you.

I’m forever grateful for finding a friend in you. I will always be appreciative by you just……existing. You are all beautiful.

semester 3 yeah

2011-09-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

wah..new semester bebeyh : D sem ni sanagt happy sebab tade repeat,but yet kena struggle gile sebab 23credit hour. uhh,berat gilerr : ( but you know what,i will try my best untuk terus tingkatkan pointer aku. maths ke tak maths ke,i know I can do it. : ) when you cannot change the situation you are challenge to change yourself. lantak lah dulu aku cakap aku anti maths segala,Allah knows the best for me,ini yang Dia tentukan so aku akan follow the flow : )

by the way,pindah rumah baru. bilik kecil but selesa,that's what i want : ) plus kedai pun semua dekat,so paham-paham je la aku kan tade transport so benda-benda camni bagi advantage la kat aku. tape Kelly,belajar bersusah-susah dulu. kalau ade kereta or motor pun bukan kau pandai and berani bawak =.=

lagi ape ek,oh ya,semester ni aku nak jadi baik. tamo gaduh-gaduh,turunkan ego sikit,and be a better person : ) lagipun tak syiok la asyik gaduh-gaduh je,bukan zaman budak-budak kan. kenalah matang : )

dah lah tu je,aku tulis ni pun sebab nak tunggu Fatin habis kelas. pasni nak tidur : D hee..

nothing lasts forever :)

2011-09-04T21:24:00.000-07:00

it's been more than a year since i left KMJ.

last night,suddenly out of nowhere memori kat KMJ muncul kembali. the moment where my class started on 9am,me and Tasha walked to Kafe B where Judin,Jiebub,Razman and Aizat waited. we're having our breakfast there. waktu tu before class tutorial maths. on that morning jugak biasanya aku mengopy tutorial maths and biology dak2 ni. muka aku memang muka tak siap tutorial la,unlike them,genius and rajin!

kafe B memang favourite spot kiteorang,selain tasek tepi DSL and dataran.. kat Kafe B tu laa kiteorang lunch,dinner,lepaking and gossiping! sweet memories. memang best gosip dengan diorang. informernya tak lain dan tak bukan Juju Man and Aizat la. no doubt. dengan muka kepoh masing2..hahaha :D sumpah rindu. even korang banyak kutuk aku,but seriously masa yang aku spent dengan korang were so precious.

it's been more than a year now,masing-masing dah bawa haluan masing ke menara gading. Tasha at UTHM,me at UiTM,Jieha Man Aizat at UPM and Juju at UKM. semua dah berubah,dah takde yang sama macam kat matriks. dunia universiti dah berjaya mengubah kami semua. even Man pun cakap aku dah banyak berubah,maybe sebab aku tak contact dorang,and bila jumpa pun kepala masing-masing dah lain. macam aku dengan Tasha,dia pun dah banyak berubah,so do I. perubahan-perubahan ni membuat kami tak tegar untuk terus bersama. i've decided to let her go. orang cakap aku lupa diri,tapi trust me,aku masih sama masih ingat siapa Siti Khalilah,just that aku dah tak rajin nak keep in touch dengan sesiapa pun. tapi,kalau kite leh gather of course aku nak jumpa korang suma. walaupun semua dah tak sama macam dulu but yet korang laa kawan-kawan aku yang terbaik

E N O U G H

2011-08-25T06:52:00.000-07:00

again. again. again. ntah kali keberapa tah ni,dah tak terkira. I have to stop this. dua org Leo dalam hidup aku,seorang dah gave up on me,and utk holding on dgn seorang Leo lagi,aku tak kuat! kami tiada persamaan,AT ALL. Pisces bersifat air and Leo bersifat api. memang air boleh menyiram maraknya api,tapi jangan lupa,air juga mendidih disebabkan bahangnya api.

dalam hubungan ini,air yang kalah. air yang selalu disakiti.

No,ada bezanya antara hubungan seorang lelaki dan perempuan dengan seorang perempuan dan perempuan. banyak bezanya antara hubungan aku dan kau dengan aku dan dia. memang kalian berdua Leo,aku berjaya memadamkan kau dengan air tetapi dia berjaya mendidih aku dengan sifat api seorang Leo.

on my previous entry,aku cakap,I WON'T GIVE UP ON YOU,just that,you will know when you had enough. When respect has been lost,a relationship never recovers.

being single doesn't guarantee loneliness just like being in a relationship doesn't guarantee happiness

Jar of Heart

2011-08-09T06:06:00.001-07:00

at last,I lost her. seperti selalunya,aku biarkan ego aku menang,distance menang,and let our friendship lost. aku tahu,suatu hari nanti aku akan menyesal. Orang akan cakap,aku bodoh. melepaskan permata seperti dia,you know what I'm gonna say? nothing. biarkan,biarkan. I've became heartless person. truth is,aku pun terkejut,kenapa aku jadi macam ni,apa yang membuatkan aku jadi macam ni? silent. my heart remain silent. aku suka,membiarkan semua berlalu tanpa berusaha melakukan apa-apa. i love,to live in this miserable life.

aku tak perlu risau,orang sebaik dia,akan ada ramai orang yang mahu jadi sahabatnya. yang tahu menghargai dia,yang tahu untuk membahagiakannya. aku tahu,having me as her bestie is the biggest mistake she ever did. aku tak selalu ada untuk dia seperti mana dia ada untuk aku. I know,dia akan lebih happy tanpa aku dalam hidupnya. I hope,dia akan dapat semua yang dia inginkan. kejayaan. cinta. and aku cukup happy untuk melihatnya bahagia dari jauh.

untuk diriku pula,biar aku lemas in this miserable life. aku nak belajar hidup sendirian. tanpa lelaki,tanpa sahabat. all this while,aku terlalu bergantung pada orang lain. now,biar aku depend on my ownself. aku boleh survive cause I have Allah. He knows the best for me. InsyaAllah.

I know I'm gonna catch a cold

from the ice inside my soul

I will stop runnin' round leving scars

collecting my jar of hearts

and tearing love apart

oneyeartwomonthsthreedaysandSTILLCOUNTING♥

2011-06-22T12:41:00.000-07:00

I'm not an expert at relationships. I don't know how to handle every fight we're going to have,and I will never be a perfect person. we're both still young,and we still have a lot more to learn. But,i'm willing to take the chances,to risk it all,and learn everything there is to know just so I can keep us together. I won't give up on you.

hoi Kelly!

2011-06-20T12:07:00.000-07:00

Don’t eat, you’re gonna get fatter. Don’t talk, you’re making yourself look stupid. Don’t laugh, it’s annoying. Don’t try making a connection with him, you’re becoming more pathetic with each attempt. Don’t hold on, you’re going to let go sooner or later anyways. Don’t expect someone to make an effort with you, you’re just gonna let yourself down again. Don’t try, whats the point? Don’t cry, you’re weak. Don’t feel anything anymore, numbness is all you know now. Don’t hope for freedom, these chains are never going to be cut loose. Ever.

the akward moment when the HURT turns to ANGER :)

2011-06-02T09:15:00.000-07:00

holla peeps,

this is just a quickie before House start.

it just,done blocking those peoples. Maybe,it's time I stop calling you mine GOODbye guys (!)

hari ni hari sabtu

2011-05-20T23:25:00.000-07:00

holla peeps!

sekejapp je dah hari sabtu..sekejapp nye masa berlalu..sekejapp je cuti dah berminggu-minggu..sekejapp je badanku sudah berisi..*taknak sebut gemuk,kecik hati aku nanti

tadi ada accident sebelah rumah eden ni. ni yang nak habaq mai ni.. there is two girls,bawak motor,terpelanting jauh coz terlanggar lubang kat jalan raya nun. kecian dak-dak ue. yang sorang kaki cam patah kot,umur 18tahun tapi kecik molek alahai cantiknya rupanya,and adik dia,umur lam 12tahun, kuku kaki tercabut and banyak luka terseret-seret. jalan tepi rumah eden ni sunyi,tak banyak kereta lalu,so family eden je laa yang boleh membantu. Ayah called ambulans,ambulans ue datang lambat toi! haish geram mak,nyah!kalau orang nak terberanak dah lama dah beranak! oh ya,family dak-dak ue pun setelah ditalefon,datang la rumah eden. hm,then,ambulans datang and bawak mangsa kemalangan ke hospital.

sumpah takut tengok kejadian yang macam tu berlaku depan mata. terbayang ahli keluarga aku yang kena. tolong laa,if bawak motor ke,kereta ke,lori ke,bus ke or apa-apa jenis kenderaan pun,tolonglah berhati-hati! ni yang buat aku takut betul nak amek lesen taw! tak pernah teringin pun nak belajar bawak kereta. semoga Allah sentiasa melindungi kami sekeluarga daripada kemalangan jalan raya yang mengerikan..aminn

hmmph

2011-05-20T16:23:00.000-07:00

hi
kelly cam tak ada mood laa..grr
soooooooooooo,kelly'll update later on je la eh.
bye,

holla kusut kusut sekalian!

2011-05-15T01:37:00.000-07:00

CAK!! :D hee...currently I've mixed feelings..huu I was like on my complicated phase of life..you know,complicated =.= i tot when i'm on my 4MONTHS holiday I can be as happy as Cedrick seghonok minum susu..like this cute lil kittytapi..adoii..satu demi satu kekusutan menjelma..

KUSUT SATU ; KOJE

whuts up with this one ay? I'm just so dam lazyyyy to koje as i never worked before..haaayeke?? malunya! dah 20tahun pun tak pernah keje ke??!

ye laa,nak koje ayah tak bagi..so,how? don't have any experience before so mestilah gementar laen macam an? haiihh~ tapi kena gak koje,i need to gagahkan diri sebagai seorang wanita yang matang..walao~ hahaha..cuti 4bulan bhaii..takkan nak membesarkan body je an..duk rumah seminggu je,hamek kau! double chin timbul lek,then tuttt,then tutt..hikhik malu la nak story sini..hee~so now,what now?oh yes now,rasa cam nak keje KFC..coz leh makan kfc like everysingleday doe!! like3err tapi kan,bukan sama je ke?gemuk jugak nanti kan? err

KUSUT DUA : CEDRIK MAKIN KURUS

perlu ke cedrick makin kurus..I was like so jealous as i'm the one who on diet,tapi kenapa dia yang makin slim??ha? **dol je kelly ni,ngan kucing sendiri pun na jeles ke? -.-**

KUSUT TIGA : nanti laa sambung -.-

akhirnyaaaa~

2011-05-14T12:52:00.000-07:00

dah edit2 cket this sawangssssnesss blog of mine..huh kali ni,Kelly buat lain daripada yang lain sikit,nta la ek,cam mereng pun ade,but,ahhh janji it's nice kat mata Kelly..wuuu heee;D banyak tul nak di update but you know what,i'm so damn helpless right now so later on i'll update everysinglething yeah..well,there's a lot of craps,best things happened on my second semester,but yes i'll update it later as i've became like this owl hikhik:p so goodbye for now dear my pretty readers yeah.. tatatititutu

my back is not a voicemail,SAY IT TO MY FACE! :)

2011-02-13T18:27:00.000-08:00

I find it very hard to not freak out on people lately. I don’t know what my issue is, but when people give me shit, my first instinct is to lash out at them. I can’t help it..you can’t be easily hurt unless you know how to fight back. I was either an outward bitch to people or I was very nice, and far too often people mistook that for being fake and began to say mean things about me, changing the way I would treat them. It was unfortunate the way things happened for me. I could have done things differently, but to me that seems insincere and I didn’t want to change my natural reaction to a situation.

I was a mean person. I regret hurting people below the belt sometimes, but there’s nothing I can do about it now. The people I’m friends with know that I’m actually a very sweet and caring person, but I do not like letting people get away with hurting me.

I need to perfect the point I’m trying to make if I plan to keep friends.

I (hopefully) won’t be as volatile as I used to be, but I want you to know that I won’t take your shit and if you do decide to do it anyways, I will give you shit back.

What and how you speak reflects what you really are. If you backstab a person, you’re also backstabbing yourself to others. No one will think your reliable and trustworthy, they’ll only think that you’re a pathetic loser who wants attention..well,just sayingg ;)

guys,,what hurts the most isn’t shit talk from other people but shit talk from the people u relied on; make sure u pay attention to your friends instead of the haters around you… a true friend stays real behind your back ;)

Ayah♥

2011-01-26T20:42:00.000-08:00

Kelly buat status beberapa hari yang lepas,yang kelly duduk tepi tasek s7,and try tenangkan hati..it works somehow..eventho org sebelah menyebelah tengok kelly semacam,thinking am i a crazy girl yang baru lepas putus cinta,then menanges sorg2 kat tepi tasek & then wanna suicide there :p

kelly mmg selalu datang tasek tu berjogging.. ye laa,berat kelly dah sampai tahap maximum dah ni. :') i really need to reduce it at least membolehkan baju2 kelly tak kelihatan seperti sarung nangka..plus,dlm masa yg sama,sambil kelly berjoging tu,kelly try release my tension thru memenatkan badan taw..my mind are so heavy with Ayah..almost of the time,i'm so worry about his condition..is he will be okay with the chemotheraphy n radiotheraphy thingy,selesa tak ayah kat ward tu,without my mum..and petang tu,dada kelly sgt2 sesak bila my mum cakap,ayah tak jadi buat chemotheraphy on that day,bcoz ada komplikasi jantung pulak..i'm just like,stop breathing n air mata terus menitis tak henti2..i'm, so damn worried! I wud like to solat sunat or at least baca al-Quran but unluckily i can't..so i decided to jogging..after about two rounds,Kelly tengok tasek tu and tanpa sedar kelly melangkah pergi ke arah tasek.. terus terduduk dan jari laju menekan nombor ayah..

dengar je suara ayah,yes,air mata terus laju mengalir lagi..he said,he's okay..and he didn't mentioned about his heart problem at all..Ayah asyik tell me to study rajin2,tebus balik kesilapan yang kelly pernah buat..and he said he know I can do my course well..lepas je cakap dgn ayah,menanges kelly sorg2 kat tepi tasek tu.tersedu-sedan.. regretting sbb pernah buat ayah kecewa with my attitude and all..i just wanna hug my dad waktu tu..

and i did promise to myself that i will treasure everysinglesecond with my dad,and make him proud of me..i will struggle to get my deanlist and i wanna make he's the happiest person in this world..Kelly akan tebus semua kesilapan yang pernah kelly buat kat matriks n sem 1..InsyaAllah :)

distance never separates TWO HEARTS THAT REALLY CARE :')

2011-01-18T18:47:00.000-08:00

LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP (LDR) ; They are just like any other relationship,but more pure. Just because you can’t see your significant other everyday doesn’t mean your feelings are any less than those who can. If you haven’t been in an LDR, who are you to judge someone who is? You haven’t experienced it, therefore you don’t know what it’s like. Telling someone they can’t be in love with another person because they haven’t met is utterly ridiculous. Do you know how two people feel about each other? Can you feel the EXACT same way as a long distance couple do? LDR’s aren’t built on sex and physicalness. It’s built on trust, honesty, and personalities. To make it work, you have to trust. You can’t doubt each other. You don’t take what you have for granted, if you can see each other a few times a month, or once every few months, your lucky to be able to at least see each other. If you can’t see each other, but you can text and talk on the phone everyday, then that’s what you do. Whatever your circumstances are, you deal with it because you WANT to be with that person. You do whatever it takes to make it work. Distance between two hearts is the ultimate test of how strong a relationship is. If you can handle the distance, you can handle almost anything. It truly makes you a stronger person.
What I have with him is worth it. It is worth every lonely night, every tear I cry from missing him, and the pain I feel from not having him close. It is worth it because he is my one and only. When I picture myself years from now, I see only him. No matter how painful distance can be, not having him in my life would be worse.
dear MSH : I can't promise you that we'll be together ferever~ but i can promise you, as long as you’re with me, I going to do everything I can to make your time with me as special as possible. You never know how long we’ll be together, whether it be days, weeks, months or years, I promise I’ll love you as much as I can during that time.Nothing lasts forever but for as long as I have you, I’m going to try and make us as happy as possible.

DON'T ever give up Kelly!!

2011-01-09T05:16:00.000-08:00

i've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if i'd ever heal again

just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone
and i've learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets
so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

Love Drunk

2011-01-07T09:23:00.000-08:00

When you are missing someone and you can’t get them out of your mind…its like you become a complete mess constantly thinking about them, calling them, emailing, facebooking, messaging trying to get a hold of them acting completely mad and ridiculous throwing all reason out the window.

satujanuariduaribuSEBELAS

2011-01-01T07:51:00.000-08:00

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

hello 2 O 1 1

its nice to meet ya ;)

well,fer dis blessing new year,i wud like to hve ;

MORE friends,memories,adventures,love,happiness,laughter

A LITTLE BIT OF breakups,sadness && tears

but all i want is another good year :D

dear 2010 :)

2010-12-31T04:54:00.000-08:00

thanks to those who hated me

you made me a stronger person

thanks to those who loved me
you made my heart bigger

thanks to those who envied me
you made my self-esteem grow

thanks to those who cared
you made me feel important

thanks to those who worried
you let me know that you care

THANKS TO THOSE WHO LEFT
YOU SHOWED ME THAT NOT EVERYTHING IS FOREVER

thanks to those who stayed
you showed me the meaning of TRUE FRIEND

thanks to those who entered my life
you made me who I am today

Bye 2010, with great amounts of love.

2010-12-31T02:47:00.000-08:00

What a year. I’ve never felt so much, seen so much or lived so much as I did this year. 2010 had some highs, nothing really defining though. Moments that gave me temporary happiness. Moments that made me feel like everything might actually turn out fine. That I’d be happy, and that I was blessed. Then there were the moments that broke me. But nevertheless, I have never felt so much in my entire life. I could write lengthy pages on all those emotions that surged through me this whole year - not good feelings, necessarily. I think I’ve always been like that; mixed up and messed up, but I have consciously known it this year. I’ve never felt so exposed, so insecure, so scared. I thought that life was about taking chances, so that was what I aimed to do this year. Some of those chances paid of, being completely rewarding and self-satisfying. Then there were those chances that screwed me over, and left me feeling helpless and ridiculous!

Do I want to change the year I had? Yes, but no. In honest fact, 2010 was a blur, it happened so fast. When I mean fast, I really mean fast. It seems like just last month that I was in Johore matriculation College., taking hayat course and building beautiful friendships with people that appreciated life, that had pure and honest hearts. I made new friends, that taught me, though not through their words but just through their way of life, how to live everyday like it’s your last. Those sweet moment when i did manage to get second place in Anggun Bergaya,Minggu Kemahiran Dinamika. Well,i luv kemahiran dinamika classes..with Mr Param..he's such an inspiring lecturer who makes me reveal my potential in speaking n what things exactly i had my interest in. i do miss him though :)

I fell in love for the first time. Opened up so much, stripping down all those layers that have protected me from feeling the pain from all the backstabbing and judgy thoughts directed towards me. And then I got my heart broken, and I never felt so naked - so exposed, so humiliated, so fooled. I questioned my faith in everything. I questioned my future and the ability for me to trust again, to put myself in the same situation if it ever presented itself again. Leaving me confused, I questioned my existence.

there is in my year was filled with disappointment. The amount of time I spent hating myself, crying to myself alone in my room simply for the fact that I didn’t feel as if I was enough for anyone, doubting myself. It was easier to feel sorry for myself, because pointing out the flaws I had was simple. Thinking about the qualities I actually liked about myself, now that was a struggle. It’s sad, I guess. That’s why I’m so bitter about this year ending and another beginning.

Last few weeks,there was one really bad news that yes succeed to bring me down..i never felt this before..suprisingly,the feelings are much more hurt than an heartbroken when i broke up with my ex-boyfriend..the worst feeling is when your loved one was diagnosed with cancer. The complete feeling of depression and utter helplessness that cancer brings is hard to battle. Realizing that there is nothing you can do for that person except verbal and emotional support.

Ayah..he uplift my spirit when life act cruely towards me,and i cannot imagine,what if he's not there fer me anymore.. :'( Ayah,please get well soon!! or shud i say,Ayah,dun leave me..adik tak mampu kehilangan ayah :'(

I feel like a chapter of my life is closing, but there a million more pages left in my book. Blank pages, waiting to be filled up, with memories that will never fade. Mostly good ones I hope.

I ask you, is there anything that should make me believe that 2011 will be different? Is there anything that will convince me that once the clock strikes 12 tonight, all the pain I felt, all the tears I shed, all the humiliation I’ve dealt with, will all be gone, never to return again? What is the point, really? We will wait anxiously, looking at the clock, waiting for it to hit 12, and then we will celebrate the arrival of a new year, having it in our heads that everything will be better, that we will live life differently with our new set of resolutions. But why? We’re all going to wake up tomorrow morning, still the same person. The only difference really, is the number at the end of the year. People use the new year as an excuse to change, people never change, not fully. A new start; you can have a new start anytime. You could’ve had one last month, or even 6 months ago. You could’ve become a better person, exercised more, contributed to the community more, worked harder, but no, you didn’t. In a way though, it's nice to have a resolution. You know, something you can work towards, but honestly, how many people actually keep up with their resolution? Not many. I bet you, next year in December, there will be a million people complaining about how they didn’t meet the resolutions they made.

So you ask me, what I want for the new year? Nothing big. Nothing materialistic, nothing academic, nothing miraculous. I just want to be happy. If I’m happy, the world will be my oyster (I never really understood that saying till now). If I’m happy, I can do anything I want to do.

Now all I need to know is, how I do be happy?

25 random things bout Kelly :)

2010-12-29T23:13:00.000-08:00

ditag oleh amir..dah lama gak..but quite busy nak buat..so now ada masa b4 balik s.alam,buat la kejap :D

Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, fact, habits, or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you

25 random things bout KELLY :)

1. my real name is Siti Khalilah Bte Mohamad..but ppl called me kelly since masuk SIGS waktu f4..b4 tu ppl pnggil Khalilah je..orang kenal kelly as KELLY tapi quite bengang gak cuz sometimes ade yang macam, wow kelly?omputeh mane ni?nama sbnr ape?why called kelly? blablabla..then i was like,oh my real name khalilah,make it short panggil je laa kelly..

2. ok,satu perkara yang lelaki perlu tau sebelum mengatur langkah sebelum mengorat kelly, **ceh! kelly seorang yang sgt2 kuat cemburu..once,u were kelly's,you can't maen2 komen with other girls,chatting2 suka2,flirting around..eventho anda menyorokkan cane pon,trust me,I CAN FOUND OUT..and kdg2 tu,kelly sendiri taktwu how in the heck i can found out bout it..it comes naturally kot..hehehe :D sounds psycho rite? kahkahkah..nta ek,bnda ni mmg ada kat kelly..i mean,kelly takkan cemburu kalau kelly tak sayang kat org tu..tapi sekali kelly dah syg,hamek kau..Syarif knows me well..and Alhamdulillah,dia bukan jenis yang menggatal2 with other girls..kalau as kawan,dy mmg awal2 letak border line,mmg terus berKAU-AKU..takde nye ber-I-YOU-SAYA-AWAK..

3.lepas tu kelly sangat2 manja..dgn bf dan bff saya especially.. :)) in case if wanna know anything bout me,mereka la tempat rujukan yang paling sesuai..dpn dorang,kelly 100% jadi diri sendiri..buruk baik kelly,kelly tunjuk kat dorang.. :)

4.kelly sgt suka makan ayam..kalau kat uitm n kmj tu,siyesly kelly tak pernah makan ikan..TAK PERNAH..diulangi..tidak pernah ye..daging & ayam je :D and yes,kelly tak makan sardin,sambal ikan bilis,sambal nasi lemak,kuah satay,asam pedas && tuna..bukan memilih,tapi siyes mmg takleh masuk laa makanna yang di-list tu..nak pegang pun takleh..bau lagi laa..mesti nak termuntah..nanti sikit2 wekkk..wekkk..hehehe :p act,semuanya bermula dgn sardin laa..kecik2 takleh makan sardin..ayah paksa,sumbat dlm mulut..ha kau,sampai sekarang kelly phobia betul dgn bau sardin ni.. (-.-)

5, kelly sgt suka makan pedas!! any pedas yang disebabkan cili api/padi/kampung je laa..&& mesti cili warna hijau..kelly sgt expert masak nasi goreng kampung yang kaw2 pedas and mestilah sedap :) tak caye? leh tnye family kelly la..cuz kelly selalu masak untuk dorang je.. :) nak rasa? boleh2..nanti kelly masakkan ok :D

6. mata kelly sgt tertarik dgn warna pink dan kelabu..sng cakap tu la favourite colour kelly :) tgk background blog ni..pink bukan? :p

7. kelly sgt2 minat biology and sejarah..anything yang membaca laa..dari sekolah dulu,paper2 ni mmg kelly score habes.. :)

8. maths mmg sejujurnya kelly cakap kelly takleh nak minat..so,bila tak minat,i can't score laa..sadly,kelly dpt further study dalam bidang maths pulak..urgh! tgk result sem 1 saya..hancusss...and sekarang,kelly tgh otw nak tukar course..maybe anything related to bio or mass com kot..tak decide lagi..infact,itulah dilema terbesar kelly sekarang ni.. :(

9. tahun yang paling kelly suka ialah tahun kelly kat KOLEJ MATRIKULASI JOHOR. sumpah best..ada Tasha,man,juju n jiebub..a perfect cliques.. :) dis ppl yang menceriakan hari2 kelly kat kmj..and yes practicum yang best,which is prakticum 46 yang roxx :D roomates yang sgt2 lovely.. una,ila,su..sumpah rindu sgt kat dorang! kolej kediaman Al-Khawarizmi mempunyai ajk2 yang havoc gile sprti teha,noor,piqa,piqot,miza dan yg lain2.. :D skandel2 ku..perlu ke sebut nama? hahaha..tak perlu..tasha je yang twu segalanya..yeappp SEGALANYA! :D so if nak twu.tnye dy eh.. :p

10. oh ye..apa yang paling kelly suka dgn KMJ ialah kat situ laa kelly kenal bf kelly.. Muhammad Syarif Hidayatullah :) perkara pertama yang menarik hati kelly ialah,dia gentlemen..dia berani tegur penampilan kelly secara berhikmah walaupun kami baru kenal bape hari je waktu tu..i mean,cara berhikmah tu,dia bukan nak insult kelly sbb tak dpt ushar kelly,bukan nak tegur kelly sbb nak ngorat kelly,bukan nak tegur kelly sbb dy bajet bagos,dia tegur sbb dy twu itu tanggungjawab dy utk menegur kelly ke arah kebaikan. terus kelly jatuh cinta..tinggalkan yang laen ke belakang,,chewah.. :D sbb tu kelly sanggup fight utk dapatkan dy..and yes,melalui syarif jgk kelly sedar yang rupa paras tak penting..agama,hati dan budi pekerti yang harus dipandang..kesetiaan dan kematangan dia jgk yang buat kelly terus stick kat dia..bila kelly sedih,down,dia boleh handle n make me smile again.. :) bukan semua org boleh buat camtue taw..n yes,dy teman menganjing kelly yang paling kamceng :p

11. kelly suka kucing. kucing suka kelly. kami saling suka menyukai. sekian :p

12. kelly suka coklat cadbury.yes yes umm so delicious! :D no other chocolate can beat it! yeah!

13. Queenstown,New Zealand..kelly nak honeymoon kat situ! wek! :p

14. kelly suka sgt2 mandi pantai..suka sgt2!! jalan2 tepi pantai pon suka..hati tenang sgt2.. :)

15. dalam hidup kelly tak pernah bosan. i will do like anything as long as tak bosan..ape2 je laa..kalau tak on9,tgk tv..kalu tgk tgk tv,tgk movie..kalu tak tgk movie bace novel,kalau tak baca novel,maen dgn adik. but,most of the time,main msg dgn Syarif laa..mmg tak bosan pnye.. :D

16. kelly suka tgk cerita One Tree Hill, Grey's Anatomy, The Kardashians, && Royal Pain

17. kelly sgt syg handphone yang sekarang ni..bnyk sgt kenangan manis dgn handphone ni :)

18. satu2nya game yang buat kelly addicted gile ialah game THE SIM..mmg kemaruk habes laa kelly..siang malam berjaga maen benda ni.. =.=

19.kelly sgt suka lagu2 yang berversi acoustic..antara kumpulan yang selalu buat acoustic yang kelly tgh gilakan skrg ialah kumpulan Boyce Avenue..kelly mmg cair habes laa dgn suara husky vocalist dy tu :)

20. kelly sgt kuat merajok..betul...tak caye tanye Tasha..kan tasha kan :p takpun tanye Syarif... :D mereka berdua ni je yang kelly rasa boleh tahan dgn perangai buruk kelly tu..boleh tahan kan Tasha kannn :p

21. kelly cpt touching doe..hahaha..kalau tgk hindustan tu,berderai je air mata kan..

22. kelly sgt mengagumi kecantikan seorang wanita..seperti Kareena Kapoor,Katrina Kaif,Juliana Evans,Anne Hathaway..ya Allah..mereka sgt cantik ok..

23. kelly pelik sgt..asal pergi mane2 je mesti orang kan cakap, "eh muka kelly macam akak kite la," "eh muka kelly macam kawan kite laa" "eh,muka kelly macam makcik kite laa" "eh muka kelly macam marshanda laa"ops!hehehe.. "eh,muka kelly mcm ex-gf saya laa.." and macam2 lagi..senang cite,muka kelly mmg familiar laa kat mane2..

24. kelly suka tidur dgn banyak bantal..lagi banyak lagi bagos :D

25. ok,last one peepss..kelly suka bunga carnations (yg kelly pgg kat gambar tu) && baby breath..kalau agak2 ada sape2 nak bagi kelly bunga,cari laa eh bunga2 ni..hahahaha :p

ok actually,seharian buat benda ni..diselang-selikan dgn facebook,youtube and makan :D ok now kena tag 25 org ye..err,,sape rajin,buat laa..hehe :))

i believe,

2010-12-15T11:34:00.000-08:00

I believe good things happen everyday,
I believe good things happen even when bad things happen.
And I believe,
on a happy day like today,we can still feel a little sad.

That's life,isn't it?

urgh!

2010-12-15T10:00:00.000-08:00

So I'm thinking how life is unjust and then I realise how much I deserve this unjustice, how much I deserve to suffer.

This thought stops the tears at night, but I wish it didn’t. Without the tears, without any sad thought at all, I feel nothing. I feel numb and nothing more. This numbness is worse than any mental pain I’ve ever felt. I want it to stop, to leave me. I want to have strong emotions again. Emotions that I can lose my head in. I miss them more than I can say. I just want to feel alive again. Alive.

:/

2010-12-15T09:04:00.000-08:00

I hate that feeling. The feeling when you’re sad but you have no idea why. You just are. And in your mind, you’re thinking of all the bad things in your life and apply it to your emotions, making you even more sad. Then people ask you what’s wrong and you have nothing to say. You end up sitting there, quiet, while it seems as if everyone, but you, is happy.

Im going to smile like theres nothing wrong. Talk like everything’s PERFECT, Act like it’s all a dream & PRETEND it’s not Hurting me…

2010-12-09T15:58:00.000-08:00

i’ve been sitting here staring at the screen watching the typing line thing blink over and over, trying to think of how to explain how i feel, but i just can’t.

there aren’t many words to describe this feeling. :'(

“If there are a hundred steps
In thy path to success
And ye have not reached it
In ninety-nine of them
Do not conclude
That the journey is a failure.
Press on and up…
the prizes are generally at the end of an effort,
not at its beginning…
and not to go on
is to miss them.
Be valiant… have faith in yourself.
Success belongs to him
who dares to win it.”
— George S. Forest

Together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance, but never in heart!

2010-12-09T14:39:00.000-08:00

You're...

My TRUE Friend,

my companion,

through good times and bad

my friend, my buddy,

through happy and sad,

beside me you stand,

beside me you walk,

you're there to listen,

you're there to talk,

with happiness, with smiles,

with pain and tears,

I know you'll be there,

throughout the years!

faith~

2010-12-08T02:19:00.001-08:00

There are moments that mark your life, moments when you realize nothing will ever be the same again, and time is divided into two parts, before this and after this, now sometimes you can feel such a moment coming, that’s the test, or so I tell myself at times like these: strong people keep moving forward anyway, no matter what they’re gonna find.

someday, this pain will be useful to you. :)

2010-12-05T11:30:00.000-08:00

believe it or not, there’s a strange beauty in pain; that beauty being strength and courage. although you may feel completely and entirely defeated, totally helpless, and utterly defenseless when you’re at rock bottom, once you slowly regain your self awareness, you’ll find strength and courage to rise above what brought you so down. your strength will come from facing your burden, and your courage will come from knowing why you felt the way you did and why you no longer need to feel that way. although experience will bring you pain and suffering, it will also pass - in turn, bringing you strength, courage, and furthermore happiness.

because you are my butterfly~

2010-12-05T04:30:00.000-08:00

you deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy
somebody who doesn't complicate your life
somebody who won't hurt you

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.

2010-12-04T07:50:00.001-08:00

orang tamak selalu rugi

yess..so true..mungkin bukan rugi sekarang,tapi suatu hari nanti mungkin? malam tadi,ada satu insiden yang mengguris hati saya..tiba-tiba mata saya terbuka. kenapa perlu menghalang orang lain untuk turut bahagia? walaupun bukan dengan kita? malam tadi juga,mata saya terbuka,dan saya nampak,sayalah orang yang tamak tu..sangat mementingkan diri sendiri..saya malu dgn diri sendiri..saya tak mampu untuk terus menipu orang sekeliling dan juga si dia..tapi kalau saya berterus-terang,dapatkah hati saya kuat untuk menerima kesannya nanti? mampukah saya melihat orang yang saya sayang sakit? things are too complicated now..and yes i can't wait to sleepover at Perwira n berada di sisi my BFF..i hope she can help me out from these dilemma :(

I've done more harm by the falseness of trying to please than by the honesty of trying to hurt~

live in the present,and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.. :)

2010-12-02T13:00:00.000-08:00

ok movie ni berjaya buat aku nanges walaupun dah beberapa kali tengok -.-

sedihhh~ seriously sedih.. T-T

and seriously aku dapat hayati movie ni as macam aku berada kat tempat dorang..

moral yang dapat dari movie ni ialah,

hargailah pasangan anda..

anda tidak akan dapat mengagak sesuatu yang tidak disangka seperti penyakit Alzheimer boleh memisahkan anda dgn pasangan..

aite?

last but not least,

hayatilah quote ini,

Do not look back and grieve over the past,fer it is gone. and do not be troubled about the future,fer it has yet to come. live in the present,and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.

When the world says, "Give up," hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

2010-12-01T17:28:00.000-08:00

ever feel that there's something stuck in your chest?

as your heart is literally breaking

you see your friend,your family

and you feel so alone

you wonder if anyone else knows what you're feeling

is this you?

look i can't tell you that everything is

going to be okay. bcoz maybe its not

but i can tell you

that i feel the same way

everyday is a struggle

just breathe and hope fer a F miracle!

No matter how beautiful your dreams are, you still have to wake up and face the REALITY

2010-11-30T12:06:00.002-08:00

The problem with love is that you can love whoever you want, but so can they..

true isn't it?? *speechless*

hmm..you.. i dunno why..its me who playing around,but its also me who felt heartache everytime i think that you may also have someone else..i'm so selfish..kan? sometimes,i just wish that i never meet you..i never know who you are..coz i dun want this feeling. I hate it :( its your life..you ada hak to do whatever you want..but..shit! kenapa i rasa heartache ni..i just hate it :( i layan you teruk,sbb i rasa in that way,kurang sikit heartache ni.but NO..another thought just cme to my mind,what if,if you fed up with me?

Don't keep a man guessing too long - he's sure to find the answer somewhere else

haiihhh :(

❤❤❤

2010-11-30T09:16:00.000-08:00

A guy and a girl can be friends. But sooner or later one will fall for the other. Maybe too early, maybe too late, but maybe forever.

=.=

2010-11-30T08:45:00.001-08:00

In an Engineering University, during a Math's class;

Student:Sir, Why do we have to learn this?
Teacher:To save lives...!
Student:How does Math save lives?
Teacher:It keeps idiots like u out of Medical Colleges,in this way it saves many lives

=.=

:")

2010-11-30T08:16:00.000-08:00

I tried not to let u see
Just how much u meant to me
I tried not to let u in
But somehow u always win
Nw I’m tryin not to fall apart
Not so easy to do on a broken heart
I tried not to care
But that was impossbile with u always there
I tried not to fall in love with u
But hw, I had No clue
Now I’m tryin not to fall apart
But you’ve stolen every splintered piece of my heart.

PERLU TAHU ;p

2010-11-30T08:12:00.000-08:00

Lelaki perlu tahu yang perempuan:

Sensitif : Bukan bermaksud suka merajuk, tapi hanya ingin bermanja dan mendapatkan perhatian.
Cerewet : Bukan bermaksud FUSSY tak tentu hala, kadang ingin LELAKI mengikut kata-katanya sekali sekala.
Halus : Ibarat sehelai sutera, cantik, mulus, lembut dan mudah tercarik dan koyak. Walaupun seorang wanita memaafkan seseorang yang lain atas sebab sesalahan, biasanya WANITA akan ingat kesalahan tersebut untuk disimpan jadi pengajaran. Bukan DENDAM.
Ikhlas : Ikhlas seorang wanita tak perlu diragui.
Korban : WANITA sanggup berkorban apa saja untuk seseorang yang amat disayangi, termasuk ibu bapa, anak-anak dan suami. WANITA amat tabah.
Prihatin : Sentiasa memerhatikan keadaan sekeliling dalam diam.
Manja : Walaupun dia adalah seorang WANITA yang pandai berdikari, naluri seorang WANITA masih lagi tetap seorang WANITA. Suka bermanja bukan hanya kepada insan yang bernama LELAKI , namun juga sesama kaum.
Ego : WANITA yang terlalu sayangkan kekasihnya sanggup menolak ketepi EGOnya apabila bersemuka dengan yang dicintai.
Cinta : CINTA pertama bagi wanita adalah yang paling dalam dan tulus.
Seks : SEKs bukanlah segala-galanya buat WANITA kerana WANITA diciptakan dengan 9 nafsu dan satu akal. NAFSU yang banyak dan tidak tertumpu kepada satu saja. LELAKI pula dijadikan dengan 9 akal dan satu nafsu. Fungsi lelaki adalah membimbing WANITA dan bukan menghanyutkann ya.

“Peranan LELAKI dalam kehidupan WANITA adalah sebagai pelindung dan bukan sebagai pemusnah. WANITA diciptakan oleh ALLAH swt dari tulang rusuk kiri dan untuk dipeluk dan dimanja, bukan untuk dikasari. Maka lelaki haruslah memahami HATI dan PERASAAN WANITA”

Perempuan juga perlu tahu yang lelaki:

Lelaki juga boleh menjadi seseorang yang begitu sensitif dan mengambil berat (prihatin).
Jika seseorang lelaki meminati wanita, wanita itu tak semestinya cantik. Cukup dengan budi bahasa dan kesopanan yang tinggi. Malah lelaki boleh menyukai wanita yang mempunyai banyak persamaan dengannya samada dari segi pemikiran atau minat. Oleh itu, banyak yang boleh dibualkan atau dikongsi bersama.
Kebanyakan masa, lelaki sebenarnya tidak mengetahui perasaan sebenar yang dirasakan oleh seorang wanita.
Lelaki boleh menerima penolakan dengan baik.
Lelaki cuba menonjolkan sikap kelakiannya untuk menambat hati wanita…
Lelaki memang dilahirkan dgn perasaan yg kuat terhadap wanita..sebab itu mereka suka melihat wanita, menjeling wanita dan menonton Baywatch! Atau mencuci mata di tepi pantai atau swimming pool.
Kebanyakan lelaki resah bila berhadapan dengan situasi ingin mengajak wanita keluar kali pertama!
Lelaki cuba meniru gaya selebriti atau berlagak macho hanya kerana ingin memikat hati wanita.
Bila lelaki cakap..”Emm. tengoklah dulu”..itu seringkali bermaksud dia berkata tidak atau kurang setuju.
Bila lelaki cakap direct to the point dalam sesuatu hal, dia sebenarnya ingin bersikap jujur dan berterus-terang dan mengharapkan wanita memahami maksudnya.
Kebanyakan lelaki yang nampak ‘desperate’, datang dari sekolah all boys!
Adalah biasa lelaki cemburu terutamanya apabila perempuan asyik menyebut nama lelaki lain.
Lelaki tak boleh belajar kesemuanya pasal perempuan dari library atau buku semata2. Oleh itu mereka selalu keliru dengan sikap perempuan..dan tak faham kenapa perempuan bersikap begitu begini…
Kadang2 lelaki perlu mengetahui lebih mendalam tentang bagaimana berhadapan dengan perempuan supaya hubungan dapat berjalan dengan lebih baik.
Betapa hebatnya lelaki itu bersikap romeo dan ‘flirting’ dengan ramai wanita..dia tetap hanya ada seorang teman wanita yang istimewa…yang lain hanya kawan..:)
Bila lelaki tertengok dada wanita dan wanita itu menyedari…maafkan saja. Kebanyakan lelaki tak sengaja….Mereka merasakan kejadian wanita itu begitu indah!
Bila sesuatu hubungan putus di tengah jalan, lelaki juga rasa bersedih..cuma dia tak menunjukkannya kesedihannya di depan orang.
Bila seorang perempuan meminati seorang lelaki, perempuan itu patut bagi hint! Mana tau lelaki itu juga menaruh minat. Senang usahanya nanti…
Adalah memalukan bagi lelaki jika tak berupaya menolong wanita.
Kebanyakan lelaki cukup lemah dgn air mata perempuan. Mereka lebih tewas sekiranya air mata itu mengalir dari perempuan yg dikasihi. Sebab itu dikatakan air mata senjata perempuan.

Lelaki bukanlah sempurna 100%, walau bagaimanapun rupanya atau pandangan luarannya. Jadi, perempuan janganlah mengharapkan semua yang hebat dari lelaki! Mereka juga normal dan mempunyai kelemahan

we are the perfect couple,we're just not in the perfect situation~

2010-11-29T09:39:00.000-08:00

1) Ask the important questions at the onset, to make sure you are both clear on the parameters of the relationship. Setting parameters such as naming your relationship (dating, seeing each other, boyfriend/girlfriend, engaged) as well as defining exclusive (limited to one person,) or non-exclusive. These can be difficult and awkward questions to ask, but will save you great heartache and misunderstanding down the line. Example: "Are you open to the possibility of relocating if the relationship should become more serious?" or "What are you looking to get out of the relationship?" Stating your end goal or ideas will allow each person to maintain what they need.

2) Do things together. Defy the distance. As a long distance couple, it's important to do other things together besides the usual phone call. In a long distance relationship, interaction over the phone can become dull in the long run. Incorporating other forms of interaction are important. Just think... People in short-distance relationships do not spend the majority of their time talking, but rather doing things with each other. Try to replicate this by finding things to do together such as watching a TV show or movie simultaneously.

3) Communicate in some way every day, more than once if possible.Since you won't be seeing each other, it's important to establish and maintain an emotional connection. These don't always have to be long, in-depth conversations. Tell each other about your little triumphs and tragedies. Ask for advice. Use an instant messenger program or VoIP for real-time chat, or web cams for that visual connection. E-mail is great so make sure you use it, especially if long-distance phone calls put a strain on your budget. Remember that e-mail and even instant messengers can increase the possibility of misunderstandings. Write love letters. Send small gifts or flowers for no reason. In this case, quantity is as important as quality. You may discover an advantage over others whose partner is close at hand—you don't take communication for granted!

4) Take advantage of the benefits a long distance relationship offers:more time with friends and/or family, no arguments over toothpaste caps, the pleasure of seeing your sweetheart again after a long absence, time to mull your options (rather than snapping at your partner impulsively) before you respond to that email s/he wrote that seemed so rude the first time you read it, etc. Most important, being far apart gives you a chance to maintain your individuality—something that can get lost in the shuffle when couples spend all their free time together. Here are additional benefits of long distance relationships.

5) Pursue common interests, even if it means pursuing them apart. If there's a movie you're both interested in seeing, watch it individually and then call each other afterward and talk about it. Read a certain book at the same time. Stargaze while you're on the phone. Set your watches to go off at the same time every day, and synchronize your alarm with that of your partner. Make it a point to think of each other when your watch goes off, and revel in the fact that he or she is thinking about you, too. Find creative ways to bond.

6) Avoid the temptation to be controlling. People have free will and no one can or should control another person. As long as you are both interested in being in the relationship, you will stick with it and distance will not make a difference. As soon as one of you decides the other is not a good match—or someone else is a better match—your relationship ends, whether you live 3000 miles apart, two streets over, or share the same bed with your wedding picture on the wall. You are going to have to trust each other completely if this relationship is going to work.

7) Try challenging each other. This is not the same as being controlling. You may find that you can do things for each other that you couldn't quite find the motivation to do on your own. Perhaps you could motivate yourselves to get some exercise or to cook better or more often. It will give you something to do while you wait to see your partner again, and it will give you both something to strive for and talk about until then.

8) Talk about your future together. Assuming that ultimately you'd want to live together, discussing how you're going to get to that point will help you prove to each other that the relationship is going somewhere and that your efforts and frustrations are not in vain.

9) Remember: Things will get better with time. and even the relationship will become better. Have hope!

10) Visit often. Try to make the time to visit each other as often as possible or as often as your budget permits you to. A relationship cannot thrive if the only thing you have is the phone call. You need to see each other up close and personal every chance you get. The key here is to set up some "rules" about frequency of communication and visits and stick to them. Consistency can help a long-distance relationship survive.

11) Avoid jealousy and be trusting. One of the easiest ways to destroy a perfectly healthy relationship is to poison it with jealousy and drama. When you start a long distance relationship, you must be realistic of the difficulties ahead. It always helps if you go in a relationship with the idea that everyone is innocent and worthy of trust until proven otherwise. Don't fall in the trap of interrogating your partner every time he/she decides to go out for a drink with people you haven't met or he/she didn't get back to you right away when you called and left a message. Just because you are in a long-distance relationship doesn't mean your lives will pause. Your partner will naturally have a social life where he/she lives and so should you. Sure, it helps to have your eyes open and not be totally naive, but being overly suspicious is unhealthy for you and your relationship too. You should both maintain your social activity and be happy with yourselves.

12) Be positive. Staying positive and not focusing on the negative aspects of a long-distance relationship is essential to keeping your relationship blooming and your partner content. Being away from your sweetie is not all bad news. Use the opportunity of personal time to pursue your interests and hobbies as well as your career objectives. Another positive point is that long distance dating pushes both of you to be more creative, to communicate better since you don't have "face-to-face" time and to test (and express) your feelings. As long as you see the long-distance relationship as a temporary state, you will keep your chin up and transmit that feeling of security and happiness to your partner too.

13) Give them a personal object of yours so in a time of need, when they miss you, they are able to hold on to something that once belonged to you. This will provide comfort, happiness, and the thought of being with you.

14) Work towards a balanced relationship between partners. A relationship must be built on strong foundations of trust, understanding and determination to make it work. The two partners should be reasonable about their expectations and willing to cooperate so that the relationship can lead to a happy ending. If these parameters are taken care of, you have nothing to worry about. But don't forget to ask some questions because if you don't, your partner may start to think that you're losing interest. For more information about long distance relationships, go to this Long Distance Relationships community website.

15) Create your own set of relationship standards that both of you have mutually agreed upon. That creates a common goal for you to work towards, developing a strong relationship whether you are together or apart. For example, agree to disagree, accept each other as you are, practice trust and honesty, strive towards compromise and self-sacrifice, seek spiritual unity, and maintain open communication.

The boy and his bestfriend.

2010-11-29T07:40:00.000-08:00

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out.

talking to the moon~

2010-11-27T07:05:00.000-08:00

dulu,aku akan selalu luahkan every-single-feeling aku kat dalam diary aku..tapi sejak insiden one group of girls baca diary aku and sebarkan kat hostel ex-bf aku,aku jadi paranoid jep..

kalau dulu kat rumah ada kucing,EP,COMEY && CEDRICK..dekat dorang aku akan cita everything..sampai nanges2 cite..hahaha..and dorang akan tengok je aku nanges..tapi at least,nampak cam dorang paham,and aku dapat rasa ada yang mendengar.. ;p cam orang gila aite? tapi semua dah hilang.. :( i miss my cats so much..bila nak bela yang baru,aku kena pikir banyak kali,sebab aku banyak habiskan masa kat University..

and then,Tasha muncul dalam hidup aku..and yes,she is very a good listener..and aku takkan pernah jumpa a good listener like her..not even my boyfriend..but,she's got feeling too..takkan aku nak bebankan dia with all my problems..lagi2 sekarang,musim final exam..orang nampak aku happy..tersenyum,tersengih,ketawa kuat2,but deep inside,aku tanggung beribu masalah perasaan yang mungkin tak semua orang paham..i'm pretending to be happy,bcoz,in dat way,aku boleh tipu diri aku sendiri..

its okay Kelly,just be happy,everything will be just fine..

really? coz,everything seems getting worst.. :(

Allah je twu macam mana aku rindu nak belajar Biology..I really meant it..sumpah aku rindu nak dapat full marks fer my quiz,tests and 4.00 fer my Biology paper..MATHEMATICS? i have no interest in maths..not even a lil bit..zero..okay fine,orang cakap,love it,and it will love you back! fer dis one whole sem,i've tried to love mathematics..but what did i get?

kekecewaan!

yes,thats what i get from maths..markah quiz,tests,carry marks,semua hancur berderai..why? i did love it..and aku ikhlaskan hati untuk revise it,trying my hard to score it..but why? i keep falling..aku berdiri balik,but i keep falling! why?? orang cakap jugak,

tak semua yang kita nak tu baik untuk kita..apa yang Allah dah tentukan tu,it the best fer us..

but why i can't score fer maths?bila difikirkan balik,result fer my matriculation,I got 4.00 fer my biology,and its maths yang dropkan pointer aku..but why aku dapat course mathematics? why?? fer UPU,aku mohon semua yang berkaitan Biology,but why aku dapat course mathematics ni?? why?? dugaan Allah ke ni? Tasha pernah cakap,

Allah takkan bagi ujian yang hambaNya tak mampu untuk tanggung..

mampu ke aku tanggung semua ni? tekanan perasaan ni? sampai bila? what if result sem 1 ni aku dapat teruk? dapat ke aku bangun balik? ok now aku sgt sgt sgt sgt SANGAT TAKUT untuk dapat result sem 1 ni..sumpah aku takut..start cuti sem hari tu,hari2 aku fikir..hari2 aku nanges..aku berdoa,aku bertawakal..aku dah berusaha,tapi aku sendiri taktwu cukup ke usaha aku tu? cukup ke? I did promise to my family,aku akan buat yang terbaik untuk sem 1 ni..eventho mathemathics course is out of my expectation..tapi,what if yang terbaik aku bagi tu still not enough?

:'( i'm so so so down rite now..

Atashaa Farahin Bte Azahar ; my Angel

2010-11-25T08:01:00.002-08:00

My dearest, Your character is fascinating..you are such such a great friend i ever had..you are uncomparable yunk..You have always been such a wonderful protective and supportive person to me...remember this phrase u said to me during our gayut session? "aku tak suka dengar orang kata bukan2 pasal kau..aku tak suka dgr orang panggil bestfriend aku playgirl," aku terharu act dat tyme..(well its before aku marah pasal tudung tu -.-) and before aku daftar kat UiTM s.Alam,do you remember? you did ask me to report everysinglething i did at Shah Alam to you..kau risau aku dapat Shah Alam..kau taknak kawan baik kau niculture shock..it showed how much you do care bout me.. :) and also,u're acted just like a mother.. ;p

you have been with me and been there for me ever since I met you. You were there for me when I was in love, in pain, in confusion. You've had more faith in me than I have ever had in myself... and I am endlessly grateful for that..Our friendship is a miracle itself.. a bless.. a strength that enables us to go on along this bumpy road knowing things will be just fine, bcoz at the end of the day, we know we each have someone who cares about us no matter what happens… or what wrong we may do..

It is such a wonder how when it comes to us, we treat each other differently, I have never managed to treat other friends the way I treat you! I have never managed to bare with some qualities of theirs which contradict to my own..hahaha..unlike us,kita sgt2 complementary..well,perbezaan2 between us is the one which makes we close and click together.. :D kan? kan? ;pI am thankful, for your friendship, for your sisterhood, for the bond that back at some point in our life was about to break, but thanks to you, to your insistence, your patience, Allah not only mended this relationship, but made it one of the rarest in this world… every time I look back at those days, I remember how bad I felt, how lonely, how tears were not only warm and bitter, but brutally stabbing my foolish heart… I Thank Allah, that these days have passed by bringing along brighter memories.. i am glad i did not leave the chance i had to go waste… for i would have ended up suffering my entire life.. **ehem2 surely you did remember our BIG BIG FIGHT kan -.-

baru2 ni,i did lost my-so-called-bestfriendF***Forever,and it did freak you out,til once,you did asked me,what if,what if someday,you're mad at me..will I chase fer your forgiveness? and that moment, saying DON’T GO seems to be stuck in my throat, i keep on reminding myself that I cannot be selfish! I shouldn’t be! Saying it would immediately make me choke with tears….But….PLEASE DON'T GO, and break this fragile heart….. but i'll let you break it, only if it would help mend yours,if only let you go will makes your life more happier..if only someday,u meet a really good friend,seseorang yang mungkin true friend macam kau,i know,i'm not a good friend like you..aku asyik menyusahkan kau with my stories,and i did broke your heart few times,i'm such a bad bad friend fer you.. all I can do is hoping that i'd be the one of the important part of your life for as long as you are an important part of mine...

**i mean it from the deepest point in my heart..

Let’s go all the way tonight.. No regrets, just love..

2010-11-25T00:51:00.000-08:00

you..yes yes you..do you remember that night?

we..yes yes we..together,smile and sharing..

thought things arent easy fer us now,

but trust me,

I DO MISS YOU :')

ok banyak yang nak kena update -.-

2010-11-18T12:47:00.000-08:00

later~ ;p

**credited to Atashaa Farahin Azahar ;)

hey little monster :)

2010-11-03T00:27:00.001-07:00

thanks fer visiting my blog :)

what happened to Best Friend Forever?

2010-10-29T14:59:00.003-07:00

Take out the picture, blow off the dust;

Take off the frame, it's starting to rust.

Remember the times we had together;

What happened to Best Friends Forever?

& no more..

Don't hate cuz I'm cute and sweet; hate cuz you can't compete =)

2010-10-29T14:11:00.000-07:00

*again,i'm trying my best to be not-too-harsh here*

Ooo gedik rupanya,

bila ada kawan2 baik PEREMPUAN untuk saling bergurau dan lepak bersama,

Ooo gedik rupanya,

bila kami berempat buat hal kami sendiri di kelas tanpa pernah menegur anda berdua,

Ooo gedik rupanya,

bila kami berempat selalu bergembira depan muka kau,jealous enough? :)

It's okay, I'd be jealous too..

sorry,

kami tak mampu jadi sebaik kau,

dalam 10 orang PEREMPUAN dalam kelas tu,kau punya demand taknak kawan dengan orang yang kau kata TAK SE-STANDARD kau,tapi dalam 5 orang LELAKI dalam kelas tu,boleh pulak semua mencapai standard untuk jadik kawan kau..hahahaha...sape laa yang menggedik-gedik skrg ni ek.. :)

kami tak mampu jadi sebaik kau,

tak boleh MENGGEDIK dalam kelas or kat fac,HANYA BOLEH GEDIK KAT DEPAN WEBCAM,melakukan pelbagai gaya2 hot dan post gambar2 tersebut di blog..tu baru TAK GEDIK namanya kan? hahahahah!! comel betol kau ni :) rasa nak cubit2 je pipi kau tu :)

kami tak mampu jadi sebaik kau,

tak boleh MENGGEDIK dgn kwn2 perempuan,kena menggedik dengan budak2 lelaki,baru orang tak panggil kau gedik..betul? :)

jangan salahkan kami kalau kau takda clique dalam kelas,kalau perangai kau sendiri yang hidung tak mancung,pipi tersorong-sorong,mendabik dada mengharap orang yang datang terhegeh-hegeh nak berkawan dgn kau..dah takde clique tu,diam2 sudah,,tak payah dok tagteam dgn budak lelaki,kutuk dak perempuan kelas kat belakang..tak menahan doe kau ni :)

boleh pulak tu kutuk mekap orang tebal tak tebal,padahal macam kau pandai mekap..mcm gud2 je kau ni..sekali pandang muka kau aku menahan ketawa dalam hati je doe..tertepek warna-warna eye shadow dgn blusher kau..hahaha..sumpah doe kau kena amek tutorial mekap dulu..dah pandai mekap kat muka sendiri,baru bukak mulut komen mekap kat muka orang,ok? :)

even ex-kuliahmates kau sendiri cakap kau kat matrik dulu pun perangai camni..no wonder laa kan..terbawa-bawak sampai ke U..cuba la ea,berubah ke arah yang lebih baik..baru orang nak berkawan dengan kau..jangan asyik bajet good2 je padahal kau tak sebagus mana :) sense of fashion,music,make-up? no sygs,trust me,ur sense r not good enough sampai kau nak kutuk orang sekeliling kau..ok? :)

i'm glad you talk shit about me

i'm glad you call us GEDIK

i'm glad you keep running your mouth

i'm glad you watch me walk by

shootin daggers wit your eyes

i just roll my eyes and laugh

it shows me how important i am to you :)

lovelovelovelovelove;))

2010-09-19T19:19:00.000-07:00

FIVEmonths bebeyh!!

2010-09-19T18:50:00.000-07:00

**and STILL counting
:)

bila lelaki jatuh cinta~ :)

2010-08-13T09:56:00.000-07:00

Bila lelaki benar-benar jatuh cinta dan setia pada kekasihnya dengan ikhlas, perubahan sikapnya amat mengejutkan. Hati lelaki yang dianggap keras selama ini, tiba-tiba secara semulajadi menjadi selembut kapas apabila sudah jatuh cinta dengan relanya. Bahkan lelaki yang mabuk cinta sanggup berkorban dan buat apa sahaja untuk kekasihnya.

Sekeras manapun hati lelaki ia akan mengalirkan air mata apabila hatinya dilukai. Untuk melihat lelaki menangis amatlah payah. Diantara tanda-tanda lelaki yang jatuh cinta dengan hebat ialah:

1. dia bersungguh-sungguh melakukan sesuatuuntuk kekasihnya dengan rela bukan kerana terpaksa.

2. Dia sentiasa ingin menghiburkan kekasihnya danberubah menjadi orang yang kuat bercakap.

3. Dia banyak menasihati kekasihnya kerana dia amat menyayangi kekasihnya.

4. Dia berusaha mengongkong kebebasan kekasihnya kerana perasaan cemburunyayang meluap-luap.

5. Dia sentiasa takut kehilangan kekasihnya.

6. Dia sentiasa mengawasi pergerakan kekasihnya kerana dia sentiasa berasa curiga.

7. Dia tidak suka ada lelaki lain rapat dengan kekasihnya.

8. Dia mudah merasa cemburu dan sensitif apabila kekasihnya tidak menumpukan sepenuh perhatian kepadanya.

9. Adakalanya dia seperti seorang anak kecil yang meminta perhatian kerana diamahu kekasihnya melayannya lebih dari orang lain.

10. Dia menjadi orang yang paling rajin dan sanggup membantu kekasihnya melakukan apa saja.

11. Dia pandai merajuk hati kerana ingin dipujuk oleh kekasihnya.

12. Dia akan menggelabah apabila kekasihnya berjauhan daripanya terlalu lama.

13. Dia sentiasa mempastikan keselamatan kekasihnya.

14. Dia mementingkan kekasihnya daripada dirinya sendiri.

15. Dia kerap bertanya adakah kekasihnya mencintainya kerana dia merasa kasihnya lebih kuat daripada kekasihnya.

16. Dia tidak akan melayan perempuan lain yang tidak ada urusan penting dengannya.

17. Dia cuba meluangkan lebih banyak masa dengan kekasihnya walaupun terpaksa menunggu kekasihnya dengan sabar.

18. Dia membanggakan kekasihnya di depan orang lain.

19. Kalau ditinggalkan oleh kekasihnya, ia akan berasa serik dan tidak percayadengan cinta perempuan lain namun dia sentiasa mengharap kekasihnya kembali kepadanya.

20. Apabila timbul orang ketiga,dia akan hilang akal dan sanggup berbuat apasaja untuk merebut kembali kekasihnya.

21. Dia menganggap kekasihnya sebagai orang yang paling dipercayainya dan sanggup menyerahkan harta walaupun nyawanya sendiri.

22. Dia tidak akan berlaku curang kepada kekasihnya namun jikalau dia berbuat demikian itu bererti hatinya belum 100 % mencintai kekasihnya.

23. Bukan semua lelaki sanggup menitiskan airmata hanya untuk seorang perempuan.

my babyyy

2010-08-10T19:44:00.000-07:00

babyy..i miss you a lot~ :((

ilOveyOu and Only yOu :)

2010-08-01T17:50:00.000-07:00

hahaha..saturday(31st July 2010) was a fairy tale for me and him~

iLOVEyou my babyyy =)

in my opinion =)

2010-07-25T19:47:00.000-07:00

love is about give and take..

don't be such a selfish lover who don't think about their partner's feeling at all..

in relationship,it is better for you to be compromise,give your full commitment and saling menjaga hati..

if there any problem regarding your relationship,cepat2 berbincang..jangan memendam banyak sangat..once you burst out,i don't think the relationship boleh diselamatkan lagi..so,communication is the other elemen yang sgt penting..

**baby,i know we can survive in our relationship..insyaAllah.. =)

The Notebook

2010-07-25T19:34:00.000-07:00

such a lovely n sumpah romantic movie yang succeed make me cry..

True love doesn't have a happy ending.

Because true love doesn't have an ending...

**can I meet my true love pliss ;(

how I wish my currently BF is my TRUE LOVE :)

can you make me more fat pliss -.-

2010-07-25T17:41:00.000-07:00

yummy~!

i'm Uni's student bebeyh! ;D

2010-07-24T09:02:00.000-07:00

holla holla.. UiTM's student here..heee;)) well,i wanna update throughly on how my life going on in UiTM Shah Alam.. i'm staying at Kolej Mawar..kolej kediaman yang paling mencari2 kesalahan tatatertib penginapnya..so dat they have reason for us not staying there anymore for next sem.. -.- whatever.
andandand meet my new rommates from 1B-03-27 ;))

Wan

Fatin

Zarith

**i've got such nice&&lovely roommates..

andandand meet my new cliques from CS2281A ;))

Wanie

Piqa

Bella

**they make me laugh my ass out! ;DD and i'm so happy to be around them..

depan mawar nie ada Dataran taw..and everytime i'm going down,i can't stop myself to atleast eat something. godd=="
and sometimes,me and Fatin will taking Rapid bus going to Seksyen 2..AirBatuCampur dia mmg terbaekkk~full with chocholate =)

yummy~!

Classes pulak so far okay..everything still under control.. =) Alhamdulillah..lecturers so far so good..and dis is the subjects dat took for Part 1 of BSc Management Mathematics

-Introduction to Financial Accounting and Reporting
-Fundamentals of Computer Problem Solving C++

-Islam and Asian Civilization
-Calculus 1

-Linear Algebra 1
-History and Philosophy of Science
and not to forget ; KESATRIA NEGARA -.-

last week I went to Klang.. Quryakin's house.. got Kenduri Doa Selamat..thanks a lot to keluarga Encik Wahid for gave me a really nice treat n special thanks to Qin.. =)

Qin,Azrai and Kelly

Together is a wonderful place to be..

2010-07-24T03:55:00.000-07:00

It is said that absence makes the heart grow fonder. This is probably why lovers who are apart spend most of their time thinking about each other.. *lovelove

we've been so far away now..for at least 4years..he's study at UTHM Batu Pahat whereby me at UiTM Shah Alam..Long Distance Relationship (LDR) will us win the battle of distance? I trust on this one saying "Distance is just a test to see how far love can travel" we can see how far our love can travel.. =) i put my confidence on the strength of our love..and of course the strength of our jodoh yang Allah swt telah tetapkan..

you're so far away..I MISS YOU

2010-07-18T17:35:00.000-07:00

:)

2010-07-11T18:55:00.000-07:00

INDEPENDENT

new life new hope :)

2010-07-11T18:04:00.000-07:00

heyhh..currently i'm at programming lab 15 at fakulti pergigian..curi on9 sudah.. :P 2weeks kat UiTM Shah Alam..ermm..overall for now..best n enjoy la jadi seorang mahasiswi..eventho family tersayang,cinta aty dan sahabat2 baek jauh di mata,tapi teknologi mendekatkan kami and of course di aty tak akan pernah jauh.. *lovelove*

okok.. i gtg..
if balik Ampang or Puncak Jalil i'll update dgn lebih terperinci ;DD

sunday is the day..

2010-06-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

dah away from Batu Pahat..away from Johor..cinta hati terpaksa aku tinggalkan,untuk menuntut ilmu..well,DISTANCE is CRAP when LOVE is TRUE kan? kalau da jodoh tak ke mana..sejauh mana pon kami,kalau ada jodoh adalah.sedekat mana pon kami,kalau dah tak ada jodoh,tak adalah..so,kita hanya mampu berusaha mengekalkannya kan.. :) and aritue sempat dating for last time..it such a wonderful night..he introduce me to his friends..celebrated birthday one of his friend,at somewhere kat BP,oke,tak twu nama tempat tu..hahaha..but,tempat tu sgt best..tepi laut i guess..and there was moon in the dark sky,ohh,,my perfect dating i guess..one day nanti,insyaAllah,i wanna go there again with him..only two of us.. ;D

and sunday is the day for me to register at UiTM Shah Alam..wootwoot~ sow nervousssss!! i hope everything will be just fine..tak leh blah UiTM register one week earlier drpd U lain..grrrr
saje je nak suh aku blah dari BP cepat2 eh..hahaha..

i can't imagine whats gonna happen soon..ishh..anything i will update here oke.
gtg for now.

and and andddddd..thankyouuuuu for those who followed me..tak sedar dah 45 orang..thanxieeee guysss ;DD

list 5 your most memorable memory

2010-06-11T10:13:00.001-07:00

1.the day dat i dating with my b,and he proposed me to b his gf :)
2.got straight As for pmr n best stdnt for spm :)
3.last outing with u at tangkak :)
4.days at kmj with u :)
5.most recent : lepak-ing at old taste with mia&&ika :)

a lot more act,but u asked for 5 only

do u wonder anything bout me? ask me then :)

kelly syg sarep tak? xp

2010-06-10T10:37:00.001-07:00

MESTILAH SAYANG <3 my amazing bf! :D

do u wonder anything bout me? ask me then :)

Its all FATED

2010-06-03T03:39:00.000-07:00

its only one move ahead for him to be my boyfriend..even most of my friends at KMJ knows about us,saw both of us bagi ikan makan,lunch and outing together..but,it seems too many issues will pop out if we declare..so I let him go..
I know you read dis jad..
I'm sorry as its me who stop our communication without any explaination..I wanna say sorry cus I'm not seeing you on last day at KMJ..i'm sorry if it looked like I'm the one who fool around and playing with our feeling..i'm not intend to do dat..i knw we're not belong together..i don't want to repeat my mistakes which is choosing wrong person as my bf,and I'm not a right gf for you neither..those memories at KMJ,keep it,hope it can makes us smile if we recall it incidently..you pernah ucapkan selamat berbahagia untuk I dgn Syarif,now its my turn to say it to you..semoga you berbahagia dgn your gf..whoever she is..

formspring.me

2010-06-02T13:30:00.003-07:00

do u wonder anything bout me? ask me then :) http://formspring.me/adeqkelly

kerinduan saya terhadap mereka :(

2010-05-03T04:31:00.000-07:00

hampir 3minggu kita telah menghabiskan perjuangan kita kat matrik johor..time flies so fast,theres a lot of sweet and bitter memories that we through together for almost one year..sincerely,at first time we met during orientation,i never thought dat i'm gonna be in dis group..Tasha,Jiehah,Razman,Judin and Aizat..well,it seems dat we've got our own way of thinking.but,who can expect dat on the last day we at JMC,here six of us..at cafe B..treasured our last moment together..

Tasha
you're my besties,you're my angel..we've got a lot of quarrel,but seems dat it makes two of us getting closer,as u said,heart-to-heart friend..well,if i need to write it here everysingle nice thing u done to me,its too many..it enough for me to say,you my best and good ever friend..and should i say,i found my TRUE FRIEND..thanks sayang..thanks for stay beside me,thanks fer lend your shoulder though i'm not a good friend like you..only Allah knows how much dat i treasure you..how much dat I need you in my days..maybe,i'm too ego to admit dat..i cant directly say it to you..but deep in my heart,i don't want to lose you..and i cant even imagine dat..

Jiehah
we've got a lot of common..even we've got same taste for a guy..and we've also got a same big mouth(mulut laser)..sometimes maybe i'm touching from what you saying,and you dont even pujuk me at all..but i dont mind cus its you..you the 1st person that i ever met dat had very strong heart,maybe sometimes you sad but you can hide it well..but most of all,i do adore you..for your independence,your sincerity,your braveness..

Razman
kau lelaki pertama yang boleh buat aku ketawa time aku dlm keadaan palingg marah sekalipun..you've got a magic man,your attitude..aku kagum dgn cara kau bergaul..kau tak ambik hati dgn ape je orang cakap pasal kau..mmg kadang-kadang mulut kau mengutuk agak laser,but,you got you're own way to recovered keadaan yang dah kau rosakkan..hahaha..so people sgt senang maafkan apa yang kau kutuk..same goes to me,everytime kita jumpa,ade je kau nak kutuk aku,but seriously,kutukan kau menceriakan hari aku..tanpa kutukan kau,aku rase tak kena..and aku bersyukur gile kau tak keluar g sabah dulu,sebab kalau tak,tak dapat aku kenal dan rapat dengan seorang lelaki yang hebat macam kau..lelaki yang sangat LURUS BENDUL ;p and the same time lelaki yang very humorous,.yang boleh menceriakan hari orang lain..oh ya,kau juga ketua yang bertanggungjawab,berdedikasi dan sangat berwawasan..

Judin
omg..kau dgn sarcasm kau..huhuu..juju,.kau seorang yang sangat pendiam and the same time seorang yang sangat kepoh! kdg2 aku berbisik dgn Tasha dlm dwn kuliah pun,mata kau pandang dpn,tapi aku nampak telinga kau bergerak2,means that kau tgh dengar apa kami gosipkan..hahaha.. thanks fer all information yang kau bgtau aku..ape2 la....i dont know how to describe you because you the most mystery guy i ever met..but sejujurnya,aku sgt selesa bergosip dgn kau..sgt selesa lepak dgn kau and sgt suka kutuk kau..and paling suka muka kau yang bersahaja tu!

Aizat
hahahahahha..kau kawan uda..tu perkara pertama yang nak buat aku rapat dgn kau..days by days,dgn pujian kau kat aku,aku makin selesa dgn kau..kdg2 tyme man sdp2 kutuk aku,kau puji aku..kau la lelaki pertama yang memuji aku gile-gile.. :) thanks aizat,tak kesahlah pujian kau ikhlas ke tak,tapi pujian kau tu telah menceriakan hari aku,membuat aku lebih confident untuk melangkah..kau bagi aku tiru kuiz kau,tutoran kau..aku nak mintak maaf sgt2 sebab aku rasa aku la paling banyak wat salah kat kau. aku telah mengecilkan hati kau ke,i'm so sorry..

korang,tyme aku tengah type all these things,aku tengah rinduuuuu sgt kat korang..maybe korang pon tak ingat aku dah,tapi sumpah tak tipu,aku nak sgt kembali ke kmj,start all over again with you guys..and tyme last day aritue,first time beb aku nanges kat public,sebab aku tahu,anyhow pon,kita takkan dapat lepak camne kita lepak kat KMJ..dats y aku nanges gile2..berat sgt nak lepaskan korang..maybe muke aku klako tyme tu,tapi aku tak kesah as long ape yang aku rase dapat korang nampak..kowang kawan2 terbaek aku kat KMJ..thanks korang..aku sayanggggggggggggg sgt2 kat korang..with all my heart..aku sayang and rindu sgt kat korang,,semoga kejayaan dapat kita semua kecapi..amin...

like a song..

2010-04-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

I can't forget you when you're gone.
You're like a song
That goes around in my head.
And how I regret
It's been so long.
Oh, what went wrong?
Could it be something I said?
Time, make it go faster,
Or just rewind
To back when im wrapped in your arms
All afternoon long
It's with me
The same song
You left a light on
Inside me
My love
I can Remember
The way that it felt
To be holding on to you
Time
Make it go faster
Or just decide
To come back to my happy heart..

once,he's like a song to me..today i'm found out he's single back..OMG,seriously,,i don't know whut i felt now..damn! my heart was like so unstable and i'm so confius mannn.. whut for dis feeling?? i want him back?? hoi! i got boyfriend already okayy..shit shit shit..feeling ape ni weyh?? i hate dis feeling!! i thought i just anggap dia macam abg dah..but when i saw his status on facebook,i was like, o.O , damnn..i don't want dat reaction..and i'm so stupid cus i'm texting him! -____-" god...kelly!! wake up!! he's just your history girl..not more than that okayy..oh maybe i'm shocked kot..i want him happy with her sampai bila2..when camtue,aku rase cam tak berbaloi aku lepaskan dia dulu..baek aku fight sampai mati kann..urghh!! damn..they shud back together again so that aku leh tenanggg..

Syarif Hidayatullah

2010-04-23T19:58:00.000-07:00

he is someone who succeed find a way to my heart..with me,he's just being him,.dia tak control macho,dia sgt cool and i love to seen him with his friends..and his friends also nice towards me..they respect me,so do i..and my baby,he so matured..he's so caring towards me..and he's respect me! and seriously,aku pon respect dia sgt2..whenever i had problem,he's still beside me,gave me the best advices ever..he control my anger and worriness..he take care of my heart,he touch my heart with his love and he does makes me SMILE 24hours..he can control my behaviour so well..huhuu..ohmygod..he got something that makes my adrenalin flushing all over my body!! i can felt a warm feeling when he said he loves me and will do his best to protect me..whenever he busy with his dota,i don't mind cus i know its only me in his mind..we are so angau with each other now..i don't know how long will it last,but i promise to myself that i will jaga dia elok-elok..jodoh,it wasn't something dat we can predict..maybe he is my soulmate,maybe not..but i'm so in love with him cus making me always smile and angau..and everytime i looked at cincin declared yang dia bagi,i can felt his love...dan aku mencintainya kerana agamanya..bimbinglah aku sayang,.bawalah aku ke jalanNya..

baby..i love you and thanks fer loving me too sayang..

You and I :D

2010-04-09T08:45:00.000-07:00

You've got an intense love/fear relationship with those you find exciting and exotic. You've even been known to turn an ordinary human into a deity of sorts by focusing solely on their best qualities. Does that mean you can't decide what's a real love affair and what's not? Of course not. Seeing the best in the ones we love is the number one prerequisite for staying together. Keep up the good work!

b..ily! :)

2 more weeks..

2010-03-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

heyhh,,2 more weeks fer my PSPM 2..i'm not ready yet -.-

syllybus bio sem ni sgt yucks cus i dislike it a lot :(

maths and chemistry insyaAllah bolehh...

haha..2minggu lagi je kot..,and..EVERYDAY i'm facebooking lyke hell..dushh*

tadi got SOLAT HAJAT KMJ SEM 2

sedehhhhhh :'(

I saw people with their mum and dad..

and dat time i realised dat i'm so f******* missed my mak,ayah and mia...

i saw people with their adek..how their adek lari2..ngade2..macam mia..

ouh damn..I MISS MIA A LOTTTTT :(

i miss her smile

i miss her funny acts

i miss her singing

i miss her lawaks

and i miss to hear she called me maksu

I MISS HER BADLY..... :(

annual dinner KMJ 2010

2010-03-13T08:12:00.000-08:00

we had fun.we had joy..we had sweet memories together :)
last nite at Dataran Temenggong,one function was held which is JMC's ANNUAL DINNER 2010 where we need to pay rm15 fer very nice meja n chairs,our own buyed delicious foods and my practicum's table was placed at paling hujung corner,far far away from stage where we can heavily enjoyed the performenced :)

but u knw wht,

i really had fun snapping pictures with my sygs2 hayat 46 and my beloved new fwen at KMJ ..
and guys..thanks fer everysinglethings yr all gave me from sem1 til sem2 at kmj..thanks.. :)

happy birthday kelly :)

2010-03-10T07:20:00.000-08:00

heyhh..10th March arrived with blessing and me smile all day along non stop till my cheeks hurts..haha

damn..its cool oke to celebrate my birthday at college..i thought it would be boring day without my family..but existence of all my fwens does brighten my birth-dayyy :)

1st of all..thanks to tasha fer dis nice lovely delicious cheese cake :) i love you my fwen..trulyy <3and then ,,tengs fer all de wishes from my dearr fwens..new and old one..man,juju and aizat dgn merdunya menyanyikan lagu ary jadi tuk saya..you all..i love love love you all tauuu :) yang ta leh blah,,kawan2 kuliah yang selama ni ta penah tegur pon wish skalii..alaa~ terharunya...so then..tyme kat kuliah bio and maths saya tersengih2 bahagia di samping tasha yang begiitu baek pada saya arinie.. :D then kelass BI,,my dear practicummates nyanyikan lagu birthday..thanks to man fer called me 'peti ais' (siot kau),,and Mr Liew (papa tasha) pon wish me happy birhday..ahh..terharuuu lagii skaly..haha..and last but not least..Madam Putri dgn penuh kaseh sayangnye pon wish saye..haha xP eventhough beliau dgn selambanye mengutuk saya..tapi saya tetappp sayang kat beliau.. :)

oke..dats all kot fer today..bcos of Maxis dgn baek atynya bagi call free..saye telah memakse semua rakan-rakan saya pada arinie utk bergayut dgn saya.. :P hehe..dapat bergosip puas2..thanks Maxis!

p/s : thanks fer all those presents from my lovely girlfwens...i love you meya,aisyah and Tasha.. <3